Thursday, December 13, 2007

Who do you think you are?

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Who are you? Who are you to tell me what I will and won't do? Who are you to be disappointed in me because I'm not doing what you think I should? Who are you to tell me that I won't ever accomplish anything? What makes you think it's okay to tell me what will or will not become of me? What makes you think it's your place to tell me what to do at all?

You're not going to change my mind.

Know why? Because I don't care. I don't care what you think. Know why I don't care? Because for the first time in my life, I am doing what I want to do, and I know better than you do.

I know what I like, I know what I don't like. I know what makes me happy, and I know what makes me miserable. Beyond that, I am breaking the mold.

No. I will never be Fairfield's teacher of the year.
No. I will not be a distinguished holder of a PhD.
No. I will not become an accomplished scholar.

But you know what?

I will be happy.
I will be doing what I want to do.
I will live where I want.
I will make my own decisions.
I will have a mind of my own.
I will be who I want to be.

And that is more than you can ever say for yourself.

Take that, old woman.

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Mama D said...

Being comfortable with yourself -- being able to live with yourself -- is a major aspect of maturity.

Congrats on reaching a place where you know what you want and who you want to be. Many adults still haven't reached that level.

Being happy with yourself is MORE than it's cracked up to be.

(And no, I don't know this through experience, cuz I'm still working on reaching that total self-acceptance myself. It must be by default!)

BAMF! said...

Maybe its becasue I never pay attention, but I thought you came to those conclusions a long time ago...