Sunday, March 22, 2009

What's on my heart.

I haven't written a quality blog post in quite some time, and I figure since I'm home sick from church today, I could stand to get my thoughts out.

First, my everyday heroes...volume two:

She's 4, and her name is Olivia. Olivia is one of the most beautiful inspiring people I have ever met. In the scriptures, we read that we should become as a child, "Submissive, meek, humble, patient..." and she's the most pure example of that that I think I have ever met. With a spirit that shines through her big smiling eyes, and a kindness that I have rarely seen matched, Olivia teaches me that there's a purity that we can still have, even in this horribly dreary world. When I start to think that there's not any peace left in this life, she smiles really big and tells me a story, and suddenly there's nothing left in the world to harm me.

(I really hope her mom won't mind when someday I have a daughter named after her!)

I've decided to make it my personal goal to make my prayers more meaningful, and thought I'd share some of my ideas here.

As members of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, we believe that our Heavenly Father has a body, and that he loves us. As a result of this belief that we are somewhat like Him, I feel like it is more possible to approach Him. Sometimes I feel like my prayers won't extend beyond the ceiling, and that I'm stuck here.

Perhaps it's because I won't let Him in.

So I've started thinking, how much more meaningful would my prayers be if I could picture Him smiling as I approach him; his eyes wrinkling into a grin? How much more connected to my Father could I feel, if I knew His forehead was creasing in concern as I pour out my sorrows? I'm not the most spiritual person in the world, but what if I could curl up in His lap, and feel his arms pulling me in tightly as I counsel with him about the issues that I face from day to day? I'd love to see His eyes brighten as He realizes I've finally grasped a concept that He's been hoping I would learn.

Just a thought, I guess. I'll keep working on it. What do you do to make your prayers more meaningful?


Patty said...

I hope you feel better really soon. I love the thoughts about little children. I love sitting near them during Sacrament, even with all the distractions. They are so innocent and full of trust and love.
I've tried to make my prayers meaningful by picturing Heavenly Father and Jesus holding me and comforting me when it feels like I'm all alone. And I try to tell them things I hope for, or that have been bugging me or that I enjoyed as well as just thanking and asking for things. Then it feels more like a real conversation and connection with Him.
I enjoy your posts. I hope you find time to do them more often!

Shayleen Lunt said...

Of course, I'm partial to little girls named Olivia;)
I'm sorry that you feel like your prayers aren't going past the ceiling. I hope you'll soon see that they are heard. You are such a great person and I hope to get you back (in Primary) someday! hehe

Mama D said...

Olivia is a sweetheart! I'm grateful for the joy she has brought you.

I think we all have spurts of more intense personal prayers and times when it seems they don't get past the ceiling. You aren't alone in this circumstance! You are doing great things to bring Him into your life. Those moments of being craddled in His arms come, but not so often that they become commonplace and we forget to be awed by them.

Love you! Thanks for sharing what's in your heart.